I'm not really one to post journals, but I really feel like expressing this one out . . . I just feel so bad, I need to talk about it . . . And by the way, this will probably be a bit long, knowing me . . .
Could you guys give me a comment to help me feel somewhat fuzzy inside again? I would appreciate it so much . . .


My mum, my younger brother and I were heading home from tennis training earlier this afternoon, and we hit a dog . . .
There was nothing we could do. It was a main road, so we were going fairly fast, and he just . . . walked out. Right in front of us. There were people on the side walk beside us, cars next to us on the other side of the road and people up behind us. We had no options.
Mum hit the brakes, but it was too late, we hit the dog, and I could feel as he went under our wheel . . .
It caused a lot of commotion, apparently people ran into each other at the abrupt stop. Mum pulled to the side and I immediately got out of the car. When we hit him I felt an emotionless shock, but that soon turned into tears. I was crying and shaking as I helplessly watched the dead dog on the road.
A lot of people stopped and said stuff to mum, working out what happened and all that . . . My brother stayed in the car with our own dog and I just stood there on the sidewalk.
A man on a motorbike picked up the dog from the road and suggested we take him to the vet, which we did. We put him in the boot of our four-wheeled drive and dropped him off. My dog went nuts, it was obvious he knew there was a dead dog in the car.
When we arrived it was confirmed he was dead. The owners weren't at the scene but he did have a collar and an identity.
We left then, my dad was driving past the vet to head to the shops and he saw our car. At first he thought our own dog had had an accident, but then he saw him in the car with my brother . . . Dad hugged me and mum, and mum cried . . . she let out the tears of shock she had kept in at the scene and vet. I haven't seen her cry like that in a while.

I feel so guilty, being in the car at the time. I feel so sorry for the dog, and I also feel especially sorry for the owners in which have to find out their beloved pet is dead . . . I'm actually happy he died, at least for him he wouldn't have to go through any pain . . .
It just goes to show that you can never forget about situations or chances like these. Some people forget and often think they're an exception, and that it would never happen to them. I dunno . . . Just don't take the chance.

Sorry to clog your inbox with this . . . I just . . really needed to express how upset I feel right now.

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